As you can obviously seen I haven’t posted in a LONG time. Well I have no excuse except for being in a dark place for a few weeks. Seeing pictures of drowned toddlers and seeing some of my friends go through really awful times has taken a toll on my creativity.
Not that that is a good reason at all, however I have had to battle with my empath heart. The only way I can describe it is that I was in a bad place, almost like trying to swim through treacle towards the light. I fought with everything in me and I can honestly say I am stronger for it.
The positives are that I am stronger, my little one was unscathed and I learnt a lot about myself.
Keeping active works. Looking after yourself is also key. However the best thing I learnt is that it is ok to wallow for a little while, as long as you put a limit to it. Allowing yourself to drown in it is completely counterproductive.
Refusing to feel guilty about having negative thoughts and being depressed is so awesome. This time I gave myself full permission to feel every crappy emotion and to truly experience every crappy moment. It is ok. I had to be careful who I shared my darkness with because it can be draining for others.
The best thing is that I NOW KNOW I AM STRONG ENOUGH!!!!! I am warrior woman HEAR ME ROAR!!!!!!